Thursday, October 1, 2009

Haunting

I have been haunted by some of the families I have worked with in foster care. Many of their stories of tragedy, and sometimes triumph, stick with me. But then there are those days when I think nothing moves me anymore and I just feel hardened to it all. Yesterday, while auditing records I was having one of those moments where I just felt numb to it all then I read a case about a family of four who were taken from their mother a year ago. One of the little boys story struck a chord with me and even though he is five, living in the South Bronx, and has endured things that a child should never experience, he reminded me of my Kennedy. Maybe it was the description of his placid demeanor or his quiet endurance, or maybe my girl was just on my mind but I couldn't get her eyes out of my mind, her soft cheeks, her scrunched up smile. I couldn't help but feel grateful that I get to raise her and that she gets to be raised by me--someone who "gets it" and realizes what an honor, joy, revelation and responsibility it is to be her mother. She woke up from her nap in the midst of my gratitude and I just held her singing this song.


Wise men say only fools rush in

but I can't help falling in love with you...

Take my hand, take my whole life too

because I can't help falling in love with you.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

They are so sweet, it's crazy to think of all the children who don't feel the precious gift of love. Your trip looked like a blast!!!

MaRea

Just one tall girl named Laurel said...

Such GREAT photos! Those eyes! I feel like I could stare at them forever. You have to bring them back here ASAP. Come back for Thanksgiving!

Anonymous said...

This really touched me and reminded me how incredibly grateful I am for my mom. She is amazing and worked hard when life wasn't easy to make sure we were loved and taken care of. It breaks my heart to know there are children out there who don't get that.

Kaedi said...

Tara -- great post. After working peds in the South Bronx, I can totally relate.

Melissa Thatcher said...

so so sweet. She's so lucky to have you!

Emmie said...

Thank you for this - such a beautiful post.

Katie said...

What beautiful pictures of Kennedy! You really have a new perspective once you have kids and you have worked in foster care. I know that when I had Lizzie, the gravity of all that those families go through really hit me--just realizing how important it is for a child to be loved and cared for. I'm so glad that you can be a part of helping out those families.

Rachelle said...

Very sweet! Thanks for sharing!